Books, Life, Writings

I Love a Good Puzzle

So after months of writing and not writing (has it been a year?) I finally have a title. My notes, outline, and chapter are no longer labeled “untitled novel”. That was bugging me. But the title came to me just this past weekend. I did a little more writing.

Honestly, the book is written. Well … it is and it isn’t. I have the beginning, middle, and end BUT not in that order. 

So it will take some time to put it all together and make sense of it  but at least I’m starting to get enthusiastic about it again. I had gotten frustrated for a while. My head is a better place now, maybe because of the weather. The sunlight does help. 

So my plan is to do some writing this week and finally meet with the local writing group I joined and  hopefully get some helpful feedback.

I definitely miss my Bedford TX writing group. 🙂


Didn’t Forget, Just Didn’t Feel It

The last few weeks have been rough so I’ve purposely avoid my blog as to avoid posting dark or depressing entries.

Things are better and I think I’m ready to jump back into my writing. I want to finish the projects I’m working on and I’ve also got some great ideas.

I found a local writing group, I joined online. So far I haven’t been able to meet with them to due my work hours but I’m hoping to change that.

That’s it for now.


Dusting off the ol’ blog

So I wouldn’t say I forgot about blogging, I just didn’t remember. Thanks for reminding me, Holly. 

So I’ve pretty much settled into a nice routine now that I’m back home. My apartment is in Chesapeake, my job is in Virginia Beach, and my parents are in Hampton. Everything is within a reasonable driving distance. 

I have the best roommate ever, my brother. Our moving day was quite an experience but we made it. I love being near my family again. 

It’s taken a few weeks but I pretty much know my way around the area again. There have been some changes, new roads and new buildings, and stuff, but it’s all good.

Things have been moving pretty quickly and I’m staying pretty busy so I haven’t spent as much time online. 

I haven’t been writing either which bugs me. I’m going to try to find a local writing group again.

I haven’t kept up with anyone else’s blog. So if you’ve had any major life changes then let me offer my congratulations or condolences. I will try to catch up with everyone soon.

General, Life

Which Stage Am I Now?

So, to get everyone caught up real quick – I left TX last week and moved Home. I was very fortunate to come Home with a job offer. I started my new job last Monday and so far so good.

I spent the weekend on the other side of the water with my parents. I’m here permanently but this is the first time I’ve been Home since my grandma passed. Since she’s part of the reason I joined the Episcopal Church, I decided to attend her former church this morning.

I don’t know why. I guess it was my way of saying goodbye and getting a chance to see her ashes. My dad has her old car, so I drove that to her church. It was an odd feeling to say the least, driving her car to her church. Without her.

I arrived at church just as the service started. I sat in an empty pew towards the middle. Just sitting there during the opening prayers made me emotional. In 1996, when my grandma (recently widowed at the time) moved from NYC down to where we lived, she found that church. Every time my brother or I spent the weekend with her, we went to church with her, same as we did in NYC. This morning, as the choir sang the first hymnal, I could feel the tears down my face as much as I tried to fight it. In 20 years, this is the first time, I’ve ever attended this church without her.

During the readings, I wondered if I had made a mistake and if I should leave. I felt a little bit of panic. When the Rector gave her sermon, I felt a peace come over. I had met the Rector, Reverend Rhonda, before and liked her immediately. I enjoyed her message and felt it truly came from a spiritual place.

During the passing of the peace, a few people recognized who I was by my name tag.

When the service was over, I waited until the majority of the congregation and walked up to Reverend Rhonda, as soon as she saw my name tag, she pulled me into a hug. I got teary-eyed again. She gave her condolences and told me how glad she was to see me there. She asked if I would come again, I shook my head no unable to speak. She asked if today was difficult, I nodded. She told me I was welcome to contact her even if it was to cry together. I nodded and practically ran back to my car crying.

I also went to her condo today. I walked around the place, looking around each room. It didn’t feel right without her. When I came here last week, my parents offered the condo for me to use until I found a place. I couldn’t and still can’t.

It wasn’t until much later today that I realized I hadn’t gotten a chance to see wear her urn was. Her final wishes were for her ashes to be kept at the church and made the financial arrangements before she passed. I guess I have to go back the to the church after all.

This whole day was about me trying to reach the acceptance stage but I’m still not there. I can’t force it.

General, News

My take on our visit from Pope Francis

I’ve seen a few negative posts about the Pope’s presence and news coverage. People are having a fit about all the hoopla. So I’d like to give my two cents on it.

I like Pope Francis. He is literally trying to save the world. He’s trying to improve the Catholic Church. They haven’t had a good rep in years. Pope Francis has said a lot of “real talk” in the media but he is also still very serious about his faith.

He makes good use of his time. I appreciate the fact that he spends so much time with the homeless and other outcasts, because guess who else used to do that? I’ll give you a hint, read the Four Gospels.

Some may argue that his trip to the States was unnecessary. He doesn’t have to be here. He’s taking the time to go around and bless our nation, our people, and our leaders. We need that. We should welcome it.

I’ve seen some posts complain about all the fuss over him. People aren’t worshipping him. It may seem that way. It’s not. It’s about who and what he represents.

I loved watching him hold Mass in New York and Philadelphia. What a beautiful and spiritual thing to witness. You don’t have to be Catholic. I’m not Catholic (but I am Episcopalian, it’s sort of similar). I can guarantee you that many of the people attending mass weren’t Catholic or even spiritual, but you know what? Everyone needs prayer. And most people appreciate being prayed for. I know I do. Our nation needs prayer.

There are so many celebrities that are worshipped and adored, and they do nothing to help anyone but themselves. They have the power to use their fame and fortune to help make the world a little better and they don’t, and yet we hang on their every word.

So, I don’t mind all the press surrounding Pope Francis. I think it’s terrific. I also love the media showing all the people giving up their day to attend Mass or just to get a glimpse of the Pope. I’ll take this news in lieu of another story about a family that murders each other, another cop justifying shooting an unarmed black man/woman, the latest offensive remark made by Donald Trump, or Conservatives talking about how Christian they are while their actions are just the opposite.

I believe we are long overdue for some good news.

General, Life

Hey Baby, What’s Your Sign?

This is probably the most I’ll ever reveal about myself.

I don’t put a lot of stock in horoscopes or psychics – to quote Liz Lemon, “It’s all malarkey”. But I must admit that there may be something to what I’ve read about my zodiac sign, the Scorpio. The descriptions I’ve read seem to describe me pretty well.

“The Scorpio is intense and powerful.”

Yes. I take my relationships very seriously, romantic or otherwise. If I feel my feelings aren’t being considered or taken seriously, I’ll end it. I am willing to admit to being a control freak at times. I like neatness and order, and can’t handle chaos or “playing it by ear”. Things need to be planned out and executed in an orderly fashion.

“Scorpios tend be secretive.”

I wouldn’t call it secretive per se. I like to think of myself as private. I’m not hiding anything but I like to keep most things about me private. This habit of mine has frustrated several of the people in my life and has caused problems in relationships. I can’t stand to be put on the spot or questioned in a way that feels like an interrogation. If you do this, you can expect me to end the conversation abruptly.

“You can be sure that the Scorpio will keep your secrets, whatever they may be.”

Some people are an open book, I’m not. I’m not judging anyone who is an open book. In fact, those are the people I like to spend time with the most. It’s weird, and it’s probably a little unfair. I will say this though, once you confide in me, your secret is safe for life. I don’t believe in discussing other people’s business, whether you tell me to keep it a secret or not.

“Be honest and avoid getting into arguments, because he/she is not the type to forgive and forget.”

If I could describe my anger, it would be mild-mannered Dr. Banner turning into the Hulk. It’s kind of an exaggeration but not really. I’m not as bad as when I was a teen but it’s still pretty bad. Once I cross over to the dark side, there’s really no calming me down. It’s best to keep your distance and let me tire myself out, lol. I don’t really lose arguments. Betrayal from a loved one is not something I handle well. The good news is, there are only a small number of things that set me off. Other than that, I’d like to think of myself as pretty as easygoing. 🙂

“Scorpios hate dishonesty and they can be very jealous and suspicious.”

I am skeptical of everyone and everything about 99% of the time. There are a handful of people in my life that I’ve met and liked almost immediately. Everyone else is usually guilty until proven innocent, lol. But once I get to know you, we’re good.

I am a jealous girlfriend. Not much I can say about that. I’m not going to have you followed or go through your phone, but flirting with others could be hazardous to your health.

“Scorpios are brave and therefore they have a lot of friends.”

It’s true. I’m the first person to strike up a conversation with a stranger and after a few minutes, I can give you their entire bio without having revealed anything personal about myself. It’s a gift. I actually enjoy making new friends and it does come easily for me. One of the reasons I like working in sales is that I get to meet new people from all walks of life and hear some great stories.

I’m including these screenshots because it, word for word, applies to me:


General, Life

Time to leave? (Angry Post)

So I’ve been thinking for the past year about leaving Texas. I’ve lived here over three years now and I kinda think I’m done with this place. I’m done with ridiculously hot weather; I’m done with xenophobes, homophobes, racists, racists that are unaware of being racist, the tea party, and Conservative Republicans.

Yes, you can and will find these kinds of things everywhere but here in Texas, it’s taken to a completely different level.

I’m tired of the damn Confederate flag debate. If you want to fly the damn the thing, then fly it – just know the REAL “Heritage” behind it. Aside from slavery, it actually represents treason. You can’t say you love America and you support the troops, when you fly a flag that represented a group of states rebelling against America. Read your history books. You lost. So enjoy flying your rebellious, racist, hateful, treasonous, loser flag.

Xenophones, stop telling Mexicans to “go home”. Know your history. This was their land first.

And Republicans, stop trying to associate yourselves with Lincoln. Yes, he was a member of the Republican Party but he wasn’t a 21st Century nut job Republican. Republicans today claim to be for “small government.” Lincoln started the Civil War to maintain federal authority over the states.That’s not small government. And the small government push has nothing to do with what’s best for the people, it’s about what’s best for corporations (The Koch brothers, anyone?) This whole party needs to reevaluate itself.

Democrats aren’t perfect either but at least they don’t make me feel like a second class citizen.

Speaking of which, I’m so glad to see that a lion that most people have never heard of, in a country that most people haven’t traveled to, on a continent that most people have never been – is so much more important than the life of a black woman. (Sandra Bland, anyone?) When that lion got shot, everyone forgot about her real quick. This is why #BlackLivesMatter is a thing, people.